Hi guys:
     I'm suffering from post animation depression. I've spent the last 2 1/2 years on the Ari 3 video and it's complete except for voice work,
however I fear I may never be able to release it.
     Sadly my female lead, Shygirl (Helen Stevenson), was diagnosed with Cancer a few months back and, like the trooper she was, still wanted to reprise
her role. She had been through all the treatments and told me none of them had been effective. 
     We worked pretty closely on all of the Ari vids and we were very good friends. She lived in Scotland and I live in the United States so we
conversed through e-mail. We, of course, continued trading e-mails back and forth and, for a bit, she was strong enough to give it a go. However,
before we could get started, she told me she had contracted an infection in her chest and would have to wait until she recovered from it. She never answered any
of the e-mails I sent after that. I had no other way to get information on her condition and, after a while, I began to fear the worst had happened.
I loved her so much. I continued to send e-mails but no reply was forth coming. Losing a friend I'd known and worked with for over a decade threw
me into a serious artistic depression and I have not recovered from it yet.
     Despite all the work I've put in, I've seemed to have lost the fire to finish the project. Shy was my coordinator for all of the excellent
voice actors I've had in my productions so I'm back at ground zero. I'm not sure if I can motivate myself to replace all the talented artists
she introduced me too. I'm kind of hoping for a miracle to get me over the hump and I know God will provide at some point. My fear is that I won't,
by that time, have the will to finish without her.
     Sorry for the bummer, but I had to get it off my chest and I know of nowhere else where the people I talk to would even understand.
My family have no concept of the work her and I did nor how much our friendship meant to me. (Although my wife did wonder why I was
crying after my last e-mail failed to get a response. She, of course understood but didn't fully understand the depth of my sadness.
I've kept it in my heart along with her memory but it has been very difficult to even view the video.
    Anyway thanks for listening, I know you will all understand what I'm talking about.
Peace to you Shy, I know that God will appreciate you and your talent and will keep you safe. I pray for you still, every night.



Not so :cool: right now
pete  


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